Saturday, May 10, 2008 - Blessing in Disguise?

"Blessing in disguise".

Although pap and Thurdy haven't meet each other yet but sometimes, the thing they thought, concern and mention about to me... clicks. They're like my 2 palms in my life. Thurdy said it's because pap's gonna be his pap too. Yea.. :)

Thurdy had been mentioning it the whole time this May just to cool me down... and I was looking at our conversation about it again. Times and times, he kept on telling me but my mind was close and wasn't taking in his suggestion. When I read it again, it really tells me how dumb I had been for a while...

Since the first day of May, although I haven't got any letter yet but he had been concerning already. I wonder why I'm not thinking that way then? With a stubborn and close mind, that's why.

That's after I got the letter. See... deep down, I'm feeling worse. My words were all wrong already. Confused on the inside, fine on the outside. I will never know much about myself.
 
 
But earlier on... Thurdy's last (probably) blessing in disguise reminder to me is in this story form which created a deep impact. I hope my mind will open up soon.
He was trying to get me to start thinking positively and I believe I will... I will. There are much more worser case than I am anyway, it's not like I'm dying.
 

Whereas for dad, he said blessing in disguise as well this morning when he was trying to comfort me while typing an email for me. I wasn't listening to him much since I was surprise at such a coincident but I guess he's just telling me the same thing too -- think positively no matter what. He's supporting, Thurdy's supporting, I'm lucky, right?
 
The only too bad will be not being able to start studying this year and it shouldn't matter to me much. There's always next year and the year after next and after next and loads.. I'm just too concern about certain things that makes me so determined to do it now.