PMS. Oh yeah, never thought I'd be affected by it and today, I thoroughly believe I was beyond control over it.
Bigbro brought over some friends in the morning to prepare for their night time BBQ. The thing I hated was not the BBQ but the number of strangers in the house. I never like inviting guest over so I don't like revealing much about where I live around in or beside of.
Anyway, the number of strangers in the house irritated me so much that I wanted to be a menace. I wanted to destroy bigbro's little gathering although dad saw through my plan and said, "Give your brother some face!" I strongly objected. Inviting guests are okay but too much are off my limits. Perhaps I'm not the sociable type which makes me hate little gatherings at my place.
Ston and I hated it a lot but this time, he's lucky not to experience it. I don't understand why bigbro's like a commoner (I meant active youth that goes chalet and stuffs) but me and Ston are thinking about the extraordinaries and hates the same stuffs except for music taste. Age gap maybe?
I ended up didn't try to be a menace though I wanted to irritate each one of them by pissing them off or something or pokes the food here and there. But I can't put my hands into it... it was hard to play evil. I'm too nice but at least I pissed my parents off that they lock me in.
It was hard to concentrate working on FYP with strangers walking passed my workspace, up and down. I have to apologize to myself again for wasting another day. All thanks to bigbro's little gathering, it sucks. I hope there won't be such things anymore. Otherwise I'll really destroy it and I'll be bigbro's famous little mad sis. And the house will be peace ever. ;D PEACE!
What's the best photo you took this year? Show and tell!
The only best photo where my bad quality mobile cam didn't really destroy for this year. And I'm still not satisfied with it. I'm never satisfy with pictures with me inside it. I don't look good in photos. :( I hope I don't destroy my wedding pictures if I'm going to have any.
By telling Mr. Goh that next Thursday everything will be compiled and done, it obviously means we're walking inside the tiger's den and trying to look for the tiger within a limited amount of time before the den's get exploded with all of us inside it!
That is so, so bad. No, I'm really thinking, "Can we really finish it on time? And I mean the whole chapter 1 of the game! Provided that the thing I can take out are taken out." Why didn't we say Friday? Or Saturday?
Or... Well, it's better that way. This whole thing will have to rush finish sooner or later, so it's better to wrap it up now. Time isn't on our side anyway.
Today, the team did a "last second" checking of what's not done yet and I wrote down the whole list of stuffs. The 'A4' size paper were filled with lots of points but what was amazing was that half of the paper belongs to Miss. CY's responsibility. The bottom half of the points, most of them belongs to me. Miss. Irene and Miss. Melon had 3 points together. Cool.
Can we really do it? Although I know my team did the handshake of "You can do it!" but can I and Miss CY's really do it? That's the main thing I'm worrying about. The both of us is like reliving the old week we used to have when doing computer animation's class portfolio but this time, it's a little shorter than expected.
Mr. Goh said he might be recommending us up for the list. The whole team dropped jaws. But that decision will wait till he sees the result on the coming Thursday. The team may be excited about it but I, am totally against it. But if we do get it, the team will feel proud too. A little confusing about where to put my heart in but I think I'll just go back on looking at my To-Do list.
Oh yea, I'm going to start my entry with a "Time is closing in quick!" Really, other than feeling worry that we won't finish the game in time, I'm anxious to 'show off' the game as well but not right now when the progress isn't up to standard yet. It's coming soon.
The game may not be what you think as a great one but 4 girls working on a section of a game, really, it was created with a mixture of our sweat, blood and craziness. Our design may sucks big time but the game may not though I'd admit that I never put 100% of confidence on our fruit because to a gamer like me, our game play isn't really something 'cool' but at least this fruit was our first attempt in creating one so far.
Whether it will "WOW!" people, I'll scratch my head.
"Red Alert" - that was the name I gave to the dream I had last night. It was dream of the end of the world. It's really a scene from a typical sci-fi movie and perhaps the story as well. But I gave the name "Red Alert" was because the bio-weapons in my dream were in red-black, just like the troop in 'Command & Conquer' with Tanya, if you played before that game.
I was thinking about this dream this morning and thoughts like ".. it won't be surprising to notice that the NEWS are reporting about baby stealer where stolen babies ended up becoming monstrous bio-weapons for wars." Internally within the country, you'll get stirs up of people trying to create destructions by taking the chance and use it for revenge on a group of people. If every countries are in war, will you call it the end of the world?
I've always wanted to see the end of the world but I totally believe it won't be in my life time to watch this grand event. I'd get a video camera and record down what will be going on and then perhaps, outside living-beings will come to Earth and dig up evidence of us and prove that we exist here before.
Will we human be some other beings research materials one day?
Once in a while when I took a glimpse at "Ghost in the Shell", I'd imagine a scene where I'll die from being frozen on any pole country on Earth. Then, many centuries later, I'd be found again in an ice block, where technologies then will be so much flourish than what we have now - that is, if the Earth still survives.
I wouldn't mind being a cyborg working for great companies that really needs a spy or under special departments governed by both private company and the government.
If they want me to undergo tough tedious trainings, I will.
If they want me to forget about my past, I will.
If they want me to throw away my emotions, I will.
If they want me to play or act anything in any missions, I'd gladly do so.
I believe I have to say "Yes" with the conditions I'm in. A person of the past still living in the future, it's torturous not to throw away the memories and still keeping on looking in front.
But I'll be enotionless...
And then, one day, I will wish I'm a human again or at least be able to die and do stuffs like every normal human beings can do.
Ms. CY and I planned to meet at Jurong East Library to work on our game today but she just had to be late. While she was being late, I was recollecting all the times I used to wait for people, people like my mom and a couple of friends which always boils down to make me realized that I hate waiting and I'm not going to tolerate it anymore but I never bother about it in the end. Perhaps it's just part of life that I'm asked to waste a couple of minutes, observing moving beings.
We had breakfast at the nearby coffee shop and brought lots of "Sugar Balls" for 16 @ $2 over there as well. It's hard to see such cheap stuffs anymore with prices rising. Are "Sugar Balls" better to sell and easy to earn? Anyway, these "Sugar Balls" were meant for us to pinch in the library since we planned not to have lunch if we found a good seat. Really, we found a pretty good seat - It was the floor. We sat till our arses complaint and legs went numb but at least we could still concentrate working on the project.
Then.. Irene called to whine a little about her credits within the last meeting minute. It was taken away just because she couldn't make it for the meeting and she had to whine about it since she had lost all the mood to work after finding out about it. Gosh... I can't take this cases anymore, so I pushed my phone to Ms. CY to take care of it while I clear the problem I was stuck in my work. Everything end well after a nice talk with her, it was hard to settle her down really. But being "no mood" isn't a good reason not to work -- according to me. You still have to work till it's done.
After a day of work, we left the library for IMM to shop for stuffs. I know I get bored with shopping easily but today I really had to buy a new pair of heels/wedges. It's time I upgrade the current one to a few inches higher otherwise I'm stuck at this one forever, it's not my dream height. Ms. CY got hers instead while I ended up not geting any pair when there's nothing caught my eyes. Just got some facial products from Guardian which I know I shouldn't be getting it at all but I insist to try. It really got mom over-reacted so much she went confused with our dinner even though I spent $20 on just the lotion and cleanser.
Yeap, that's me mommy.
:/ She needs to trust me more in stuffs like this. She needs to let me out into the wild more often. She needs to stay calm with my spending, it's not like I buy stuffs everyday. Though when I spend, it's a little overboard.
She needs to know that it's not like the Earth is splitting when I shop even though I never like going out of the house. Believe me mommy, after I graduate, I wishes so much that I don't have to step out of the house ever again but you guys just need me to go and apply for my next level of education.
The outside world is so dangerous, I rather stay home and hangs on the internet instead. Will this be much comforting to hear?
We had got ourselves installed with the new gate today.
I didn't know it would be this tall! It looks like a gate for a fortress than a house. I mean, it looks weird to have a large gate all of the sudden. I bet we're going to install a tower somewhere... nah, my room's the tower where I shall lay down my maiden's hair. Ha ha.
But my parents are complaining about the design of it. That's one bad about not having an office space to showcase your product to customers. This company that does wooden stuffs doesn't have it, they should consider about it if they are earning.
Ston's back by the way! ------------ He's bald! I feel like my nasty companion is back but going off again tomorrow night.
What's your favorite thing to drink when it's cold outside?
That will definately be a bowl of hot creamy mushroom or chicken soup. Otherwise it's anything warm enough to keep myself warm and my tummy from growling.
I love soup a lot, second after cupcorns.
I've never try hot chocolate before though but cold bitter ones, yesh. Had it over at Cafe Galilee in the school library. If there are chances of at least getting near that cafe again and a freezing school, I'd order a cup of Hot Chocolate for me and the lucky souls around that I know.
Perhaps before I start saying how bad the situation I am currently in, I should think about the friends I used to play with the current situation they are living in. No, not just friends but anyone who are in this circle of bad situations that they can't do anything but to wait.
Anyway, I'm talking about friends whom I used to have when I was in primary school. Those I played around with, joked with, pretend to do project with and even ran under the rain with. Most of them I've lost contact of but only a handful of lucky souls which I'm fated to be with on one of their life branches. It's just that after talking to Ms. Yap, a long time friend since PPS but seldom chatted much, then looking back at my situation, mine isn't as worse as hers but she's also in a not so good position either because of her choosey attitude. Geez.. another one with the attitube problem that's going to harm them a lot.
Well, she's not really stidying at the moment but at least she's not wasting her time doing nothing, she's working. Seriously, I was glad I could finally have a good chat with her after so long because to me, she always seems to be leading a good life. Always. (Yes, my one-sided thought is wrong.)
And when it comes to someone living a good life, I'm always curious to know what they've been doing and currently concentrating on. Which it isn't so about her life at all. She felt depress and she yearns to be in school right now. She's one of all people I know whom experienced the feeling of going back to school and study after working so long when she's still a young lady.
I wish she can get into one soon. Especially the one she mentioned earlier - Shatec. I told that as long as she gets into something good, stop whining about it already but I guess it will take her some time to get used to it.
I wish her all the best!
Me and Ston have been checking out Mother 3 for a while now and they are still, well, working on hacking it.
But this fan team is good!
Really, the both of us are stuck with words because the hacking job for the game is really tough and they are doing it for free for the public.
Oh boy oh boy, let's hope the translation goes well and fast! :D I can't wait!!
