45 posts from May 2008

Who helped make you the cool person you are today?
Submitted by Amy - Sister Brown Hair Surprise.

It's not just one person's effort. It's the people around me, the friends I made and the environment I walked through the past 3 years mold me into the cool person I am today. I remember that life-changing moment I experienced before entering RP, that changed my mind and these, I mentioned, mold me up.
 
Not forgetting the man I'm with as well, my pillar of support and my parents, though they aren't a big help but their cash are. ;)

Ston's bedroom was hijacked in about 2 hours ago!

Yeap, something unexpected, by the rain that seeped in from the ceiling through the ceiling light. (Yep, you are seeing my old Westwood Hockey tee being used.) It took us about an hour to clear everything up though.
 
 
His whole bed turned into a water bed which was so cool! But he won't be sleeping here tonight if it's not going to dry.

Mmm... he was lucky to wake up before the down pour otherwise he'll be wet while sleeping. *Giggles* Nothing was harm, just the bed and the bed frame which we are trying to dry it at the moment. Bigbro's and my bedroom was fine too.
 
 
Thanks to this, we were able to go up the attic after 10+ years of living in this house! I was excited, I turned adventurous! Sadly, I couldn't get up because I'm short (there was a short brick wall to climb pass in order to stand up there) and it was dusty up there as well, I'm allergy to it. So, Ston and pap went up instead. My curiosity just won't go off without seeing what it looks like up there so Ston helped me to take these pictures while at the same time, helped pap to hold the rubbish as well. Pap was busy cleaning up the puddle up in the area that made Ston's room ceiling. My area looked dry, lucky me! :)

Nothing cool to you huh but it is for me. I never see my attic before even though it looks rundown. It looks huge enough to make another room ya know? Even though the only place I can get sunlight is the brightest area you see in the picture above. Pap got the intention to make it into a storage room and a stairs to come up here. Right now, there's nothing to help us up there. We came up through my bedroom toilet ceiling entrance. :)
 
 
I had a wishful thought earlier though. I thought Ston's ceiling was going to drop because that means we'll get the chance to renovate our room but nah, thing wasn't that serious. :) Oh well.

What event changed your life for the better?
Submitted by Kasey.

THIS TIME ---- I will say it's that very time before I enter RP. Darn, every school I went down to (except Temasek Poly) doesn't want me or give me a sh|t when I told them my results. I know it's bad but at least thinking about kids who reaaaaaaaaaaaaally want to enter Poly. You never know they are good! Unless I look like a brat.
 
Until I reached RP... went in, sat down, fill in my particulars (probably I did asked some questions too) and wah la! A chance came to me in a couple of weeks time! That time was sooooo scary! :( I felt like I'm a dead meat. I swore I'm not going to fool around again which is why I started out RP seriously and slowly grasp my pace in there. That's why I'm scare now too. It's application to Uni but the whole sensation is the same!
 
That chance is my very serious and important life-changing event I never want to play anymore.

My parents.. I'm guessing they stay up late and use this time to chat and share their worries and stuff, just when the kids are asleep. Whatever I told dad last night, mom got hold of it. This morning, when she came to wake me up, she questioned lots of stuffs when I was still in sleep mode, it was irritating for sure.
 
I know they are panic and worry for me but the poor soul here is me and me hates hearing things I don't want to hear over and over again. Yes, they are suggesting a lot of stuffs but for me, I know what I want to do but I don't know how to put it out correctly to them, they think my steps are wrong.
 
Last night when pap was typing the email, he practically put himself in my shoe and said his piece but what about me? I'm furious and disappointed, I wanted to say what I want as well but I can't. Probably he was right, my way of writing to them will make it sound different and wrong but it's my life I'm walking on, isn't it? Whatever I'm doing, whatever I'm thinking, it forms my path. I wouldn't want them to be preparing my resume or writing my resignation letter next time.
 
I want to.. do it on my own and make sure I can go through because I can feel that they are feeling quite depress at my results compare to my brothers although the more doted one. They may not say it but I've been observing... That, just can't get off my heart.
 
I had let them down a few times when I was still a jerk... but as time goes by, I realized I've got dreams and I know the things I want without them telling me. I may be a coward at stepping front but I'd blindfold myself at least and keep on stepping.
 
That's why I'm eager to get into a U, a last education point in their eyes which I swear I'll boost up more than what I can in RP. Be it active in social and academic.
 
Like I said, I'm not giving up at all though they feel that I am. Probably because of style I am at home made the wrong direction.
 
 
So, telling my friends that I'm lazy to work so I'm running to the U to escape was a lie. I may be lazy to work and prefer running into the comfort zone but there's something inside me that's eager to step outside and play 'Risk'.

2:43AM. Pap was frustrated and it was spreaded to me. I gave up my chair, entered GMAIL, placed both school's email address and let him emailed what he wanted under my name.
 
When everything was done, he said, "Be persistent." Or rather "Be naggy and let me in or I bite." Now, I'm curious what they will reply tomorrow. I'm mad too though, the idea that my $10 went down the drain, coming back with just an envelope and a piece of paper just to reject. Who wouldn't be pissed, seriously?
 
 
God, I'm tired. Tomorrow (later on actually), I'll continue with picking up my craps. Today, I felt like vomiting at all the workpiece I did looking through at the folders so I googled "creating cool flash portfolio" and surfed around for ideas. Oh yea, I never give up on that even though I hate the feeling of googling such thing. I used to google something like this before in the past and it was very sickening. I have the phobia.
 
 
CY said knowing that other people can code or design so well makes her feel like a "split-second idiot", a name I created. I felt so too but what to do? I prefer staying happy and learn even though I may be looking like a dumb dumb. Afterall, I claimed myself to be a slow-worker already, it doesn't harm if I claim to be a slow-learner.
 
I'm a hybrid.
 
 
And oh, not forgetting that there was another blogger commented racist remarks in her blog which made a big wave. She's 20 and a mother herself. That puzzled me because she doesn't know how to control herself even though she's a mommy and her hubby gotta go down and wipe things up for her which in turn getting himself hurt as well. I hope she learnt from the mess she created though from getting out of control. I heard she was being reported already but probably there's a lawsuit running for her tail. She just have to face it somehow. What I'm trying to say is... a mother gotta think like a mother? Be mature at least? She got a kid to look after afterall. Bless her though.
 
 
Goodnight.

Next Thursday, I'm going to do list out certain stuffs and start off a whole new chapter again.
It may be one of the most boring chapter ever or not.
But it's a chapter that keeps me thinking about it quite often before it's even here.

If only Thurdy woke up early today... I wanted to share with him this lovely song. "There'll never be goodbye" by Honda Toshiyuki from the anime movie "Metropolis".
 
Have you watched this anime before? It's pretty good, a must-watch The songs Ray Charles' "I can't stop loving you" to this one fits the movie perfectly and I can't stop humming and singing it today while I was busy with gathering my work.

Burning orange light slowly melt into the sky

Sparkles in your eyes aglow

Cold and heartless walls and never ending sighs

When you held me close, were gone

 

I'd have never known if you had never shown

Someday I'd have wings to fly

But who'd ever dream these arms were meant to break

So I must go

Before you see me fall

 

I recall sweet and enchanted days

Your smile chased the clouds away

All fragments of our memory survive

Shining in the moonless night

 

Life time is a match

A momentary flash

Yet this forever remains

You are in my heart

Until my heart's not mine

So remember, this never is goodbye

 

I recall sweet and enchanted days

Your smile chased the clouds away

All fragments of our memory survive

Shining in the moonless night

 

Stay close to my soul

Like you're close to my hands

Darling, if I fade away

You are in my heart

Until my heart's not mine

But I must go

Before you see me fall

 

So remember, this never is goodbye

 

Please remember... there'll never be... goodbye

  
This song reminds me of the time, probably about 2 years back when Thurdy and I still say "bye" at the end of our conversation until I stopped it and said.. "I'll see you later babe" or "See you later hon". It just don't sound appropriate to say "goodbye" to someone you love so much.
 
There's definitely no goodbyes in a relationship... no matter what.
 
Don't you just want to dance along to this song?

Argg.. I felt pure stupidity and fatness of myself. I hope Thurdy don't feel bad and concentrate on his test. I'd be guilty if he didn't do well for today and it will be my fault definitely. I don't have the intention to make the start of his day sucked. I was wrong to get mad at him earlier on when I was trying to wake him up over MSN (I hated doing this so much but still when the clock hits 6, I'll spam him messages like an MSN-Alarm thing).
 
Probably the frustration of downloading and backing up my work from LEO this afternoon made me cranky. I went berserk pressing my keyboard buttons, got really worry that he was not replying, thinking that he was still sleeping and don't want him to be late for his test.
 
The berserk limit dried out and I got mad. I went offline straight away but got back in thinking that probably it was my MSN being laggy. I was still worry. When I got in back and spammed a couple more messages, there was no reply from him either until he finally replied he was all set to leave for school which made me went uber mad about it. I was thinking, "Why didn't you at least reply me with something to let me wait for you?". At least, that will calm my mind of worries and madness.
 
So, I told him that I was mad but I don't want to talk about it anymore since he was getting late and asked him to rush off right away. Thinking about it again, it was my fault. I still shouldn't have get mad about it but really, waking him up over MSN is irritating. Hubby just got to start loving his alarm otherwise, I'll make him do so.
 
 
It's not that I hate waking him up but bringing this into MSN really kills me. I'd rather wake him up when I'm close to him or die than to do anymore MSN-Alarm for him. Ahh... the distance is getting into my nerves like a poison but I got to relax. I got to... for the sake of our future.
 
 
Oh yea, I can download my work off from LEO when I was on the main desk but on lappy, it was impossible. That's good, one task off the list.

Things just keep getting worse? Well, not really. Today is just the start of what I thought I'm ready to do --- Go into LEO, gather my year 2 stuffs that I actually deleted in the past and organize everything well properly. I even made a to-do list for this. Sometimes you just don't know when something you don't need at the moment may be needed in the future.
 
Here I am, happily getting into LEO just to find out that Firefox, Opera, and IE couldn't let me download any assignments I uploaded in there except for PPT which I don't need. On Firefox, there was no "Save Link As" when I right-clicked it. On IE, there was "Save Target As.." but it gave me a popup with a ridiculous reason that meant like IE don't have such download function? On Opera, I couldn't even get into LEO. Crap.
 
I need my works! I need to polish those works! Desperate, I went to cry for help at CY even though she was in the office and I thought she could help me with it. I willingly waited for her to get back home while in the meantime, I noted down the stuffs I want to download since I could at least surfed LEO. The stuffs are there but I can't grab it.
 
Night came and she was finally online to help me with it. I gave her my LEO details and she tried to use it to login to VPN and LEO, it succeeded. When she went further and asked me what I need, I told her the stuffs and she told me nothing happen at her side when she tried to click on it. It was totally blank. No download pop-up box appear at all. Double craps. I felt like I waited for nothing. The weird thing was only my account got this phenomena while hers was working fine.
 
CY suggested I used Tencent Traveler developed by an unknown Chinese developer. It took me a while to install it because my system couldn't read those Chinese characters on the setup. She then asked me to hold on while she searched for an English version of it, I helped along too and thought I found it but the link was broken. Triple craps.
 
In the end, I just let this convinced me.

Yeap. No idea how the logic goes but I convinced myself that since it's read only, certain files can't be downloaded. I'll ignored Year 2 works then. Thanks god I didnt delete Year 3 things. So, that means I've got lots of things to do tomorrow for a lousy portfolio I'm putting up. In fact, earlier on I remembered I burnt my work into a CD but my lappy CD reader wiped out the Y2S1 files. I'm left with the second CD, I hope I've got some luck there. I'm going to open it on the main desk.
 
Luckily I have intentions to do some more things on my own to place it in, I'll just take a while only.
 
 
CRABS. Crabs. Craps.
 
 
Hubby is having his finals today and for the next couple of days, I believe, before the Summer Break. I wonder if he was late for the test? I hope not because he was hard to call up. Good luck honey!
 

I'm tired. Goodnight.

"Music Catch". I was playing this on Kongregate earlier. The music is soothing and beautiful and the game is quite simple. Great game to play if you're taking a rest out from work. I kept on getting better scores each time I replay this game and commented that it's quite romantic too, probably due to the song. The down part will be there's only one round and no other levels behind it.