1 post tagged “parents worries”

My parents.. I'm guessing they stay up late and use this time to chat and share their worries and stuff, just when the kids are asleep. Whatever I told dad last night, mom got hold of it. This morning, when she came to wake me up, she questioned lots of stuffs when I was still in sleep mode, it was irritating for sure.
 
I know they are panic and worry for me but the poor soul here is me and me hates hearing things I don't want to hear over and over again. Yes, they are suggesting a lot of stuffs but for me, I know what I want to do but I don't know how to put it out correctly to them, they think my steps are wrong.
 
Last night when pap was typing the email, he practically put himself in my shoe and said his piece but what about me? I'm furious and disappointed, I wanted to say what I want as well but I can't. Probably he was right, my way of writing to them will make it sound different and wrong but it's my life I'm walking on, isn't it? Whatever I'm doing, whatever I'm thinking, it forms my path. I wouldn't want them to be preparing my resume or writing my resignation letter next time.
 
I want to.. do it on my own and make sure I can go through because I can feel that they are feeling quite depress at my results compare to my brothers although the more doted one. They may not say it but I've been observing... That, just can't get off my heart.
 
I had let them down a few times when I was still a jerk... but as time goes by, I realized I've got dreams and I know the things I want without them telling me. I may be a coward at stepping front but I'd blindfold myself at least and keep on stepping.
 
That's why I'm eager to get into a U, a last education point in their eyes which I swear I'll boost up more than what I can in RP. Be it active in social and academic.
 
Like I said, I'm not giving up at all though they feel that I am. Probably because of style I am at home made the wrong direction.
 
 
So, telling my friends that I'm lazy to work so I'm running to the U to escape was a lie. I may be lazy to work and prefer running into the comfort zone but there's something inside me that's eager to step outside and play 'Risk'.